Universally Remote

Sometimes you can be everywhere without being anywhere at all...



Life is busy. Between school, work, family, money, bills, and trying to start a little business for myself, I'm covered by, "things to do, people to see, and places to be." I don't totally mind it, I'd rather be busy than working on making a permenant dent in the couch.



But...when will the circus end??



I keep telling myself, this grind is for the bigger picture. It's beyond a degree, it's beyond a nice house and a flyy car, it's even beyond money. It's about making me known to YOU. Some people who read my blog may think I'm full of myself. I don't deny it, I love me...but I'm not FULL of myself.



I just see my life as a diamond. You're welcome to view yours however you like. My diamond life, isn't flawless, but it is priceless.



In all my scrounging to attain more, and be more. I feel like the me...the girl...the woman..Danada, is buried. Not in a death, "burial" way, but covered. In class, I have to be the student. Attentive and a wet sponge. At work, I have to be cordial and responsive to people's needs.



Who's responsive to my needs?



I lend myself to my friends listen to their misfortunes and converse about what's going on with them and what they want to do about the problem. That's fine. I love my friends and am willing to always be there, same of course for family and even more so. Sometimes though, I feel like the deed isn't reciprocated. Maybe I'm a "bottler"...you know, one who keeps it all inside until it's too much to handle and explodes like an open pop that was dropped on the floor. Because of that, unfortunate personality trait. I sometimes feel aloof and detached.



I suppose we all get a little lost admist the chaos of life. Perhaps, we all need that saving hand here and there. I'm no stranger to my feelings...I've very in tune to them and right now. I'm feeling universally remote...



Maybe, I need the circus...the acrobatics, the lights, the magic...maybe that fits me. I'm not engaging in a form of self-loathing...we just established, that, I do in fact love who I am and I'm in love with who I am to become. Guess, I'm just finding my way. I don't have it all figured out...there's no "real plan" complete with a Mapquest directional route for where I wanna be in 5 years. I just trust God to do what he does best, and that's lead his people.