How could he be so heartless.....??

So, I told myself...it's okay, you'll get over it. Well truth is, it's now weeks even months later, and I'm not really over it. I'm sure you may be wondering, wtf I'm talking about. Wellllll....I was talking to a guy who was a different kind of guy for me (i.e. not like the others) and I don't say that in the loose term that people use when they don't know what else to say about someone. He really was very different than any other guy I had been with before. Possibly, because he was older, more established and had accomplished things in his life. I was attracted to his tenacity, his past, his story, his passions...HIM. Just for backgrounds' sake, I'm a hopeless romantic and I believe that love is the strongest emotion one can have...except when that love turns into hate (but thats another blog topic altogther) Anyway, we talked for over a year, everything was good. Granted any relationship of any sort will have its ups & downs...we were no different. BUT then one day...I guess I said something that he didn't like...and he disappeared, literally.


Normally, under any other circumstances I probably wouldn't have cared, because I too have pulled the "now you see me, now you don't" on a couple of guys...but NOT after I've spent a frickin' year and half with them. What.the.eff, yo??!! Was I not worth an explaination to you? Did I do something so wrong that you just felt it necessary to see me Monday and forget me by Wednesday?? That hurt me to my core...I didn't cry tho. Not because "I'm too strong to cry" but because honestly, I think I saw it coming. Somewhere during that time, I knew he would eff me over, but you never listen to that little voice in your head...which sucks because that voice knows wtf its talking about lol

I will say this though, he kinda ruined my faith in men. No, I don't think all men are dogs, no I don't think they are all liars and cheaters...but I do think we're all human and none of us are above doing someone dirty. That very thought petrifies me. I want to love, I want to make breakfast in the morning, I want fix soup when he's sick, encourage him when he's down, support his endeavors, share his happiness, be everything to him that I would want a man to be to me. Guess it's just not my time. All I know is, that time better hurry up before I become a bitterfaced b*tch. lol (not really) I'm still a lover...i guess.


Yea, I needed to get that off my heart. It's been suppressed for months now.

Waamp Waaaamp

Morning world!!!

So, today was one of those days where you wake up and don't really feel like yourself. Not bad...not necessarily good either but just "blaah"...yep, I'm there. This year has been rough (for reasons that not even a blog can handle) but I'm still here and I'm still standing. Besides, sh*t happens..right?? No need to cry and bitch about it..although, I'm sure I probably will anyway. I'm one of those people that will always have an opinion about everything...and I like that about me, because people like that usually know what they want in life. So, if you're opinionated take this moment to pat yourself on the back ::pat pat:: I turned 23 in February...the 28th to be exact and I swear, this has been the year for me to DISCOVER, LEARN, and EMBRACE who I am as an individual as well as a growing woman. No perfections found here....I'm full of flaws...and I'm okay with that (well, for the most part lol) Also, I think some insecurities are good. They can drive you to become a better person, whereas some insecurites (if not handled correctly) can consume you and ruin the person you are to become. So, I say all that to say this LOVE YOURSELF. Love your big forehead, short hair, long hair, nappy hair, stringy hair, big feet, little feet, big ears, big lips, big nose, moles, unibrows, cockeyes, braces, crooked teeth, underbites, overbites, scars, bumps, bruises, bow-legs, pigeon toes, knock-knees, and everything else. I would've listed stank breath but THAT's a fixable and unacceptable flaw lmao.

Anywho....
I just felt it necessary to leave that little "jewel" of wisdom...

...and I'm out --->

Welcome to {Ms.} Understanding

Hey everyone!

Welcome to my blog. I'm fairly new @ this whole blogging world...I'm pretty big on social networking sites ( I find them beyond interesting) but I felt like I had more to say than what Twitter would allow. 140 characters can only take your thoughts so far lol.

This first post will be pretty short, seeing as how I'm just kinda finding my way around and figuring out what I want to do with this blog and how I plan to present myself to you, my readers! I'm an intersting person (I think) my friends dubbed me "weird" and I totally take that as a compliment. :) So in saying that, I'm sure that throughout the course of me providing my thoughts and ideals via this blog, you will likely form your own opinion of me...which is ok.

So, to give a little background about me. I entitled the blog {Ms.} Understand Me because that is the exact thing that happens to me all too often. I say how I feel and whatever may be on my mind, and sometimes it's taken completely out of context. So, here is my platform to say whatever I feel however I feel it. That doesn't mean that it still won't be misunderstood, but at least I can still express myself freely.

Okay, I think you get the drift....

Check you later!